Just take it already!

Often, when planning for an outing, most of them wouldn't come to a final agreement. They either keep discussing, and discussing, and discussing, until more and more choices appear. In the end, nothing comes to an end and most of us foresee failure.

Not that I am complaining, but I ended up making a decision. Always me.
Then I got fed up with it, I decided to sabotage one meet-up, told them I wasn't free/feeling well, and tell them to decide it on their own. In the end, they just cancelled it.
"Sarah, so how's the plan?" "Sarah, so is ___ going?" "Sarah, who's gonna fetch me?" Sarah this, Sarah that. No, this is not leadership when everyone is too dependent.

I started making decisions for others. People are so gullible these days. They can't make a decision properly, and believe everything people tell them (especially Facebook rumours!). They ended up giving you the authority to make decisions for them. Sure, if they succeed, all you get is the gratitude and not their profit; if they fail, all you get is the blame and embarrassment for the rest of your life.

I don't intend of making people's life miserable, but most of the time, without making a firm stand, life cannot go on! At least mine doesn't, if the decision they are supposed to make involves me.
I have made several wrong decisions for myself this year, but I am hoping and trying hard to work everything out. *clenches fist* This is what you get when you are older, less dependent.

Christmas is near! So excited. :B

if i say

http://youtu.be/ljRZnZgJOlQ
if i say that i love you, if i told you whats the deal
if i say that i love you, tell me how you feel
if i say that i love you, would you look at me the same

so lazy to use the shift key at the moment, please pardon all the lowercases in this post. by the way, it looks more contemporary, all these lowercases, less formality eh.

so i am confirmed a prefect now, finally [exclamation mark here please] and i am very, very emo these days. screw dopamine, screw myself for being an introvert, screw screw screwdriver pew pew pew. ```stressed

finals on the 31st october, need to study but where art thou moteevayshion.

yeah man, i just need to let things out, bottling my feelings inside me, one day i might just explode.
i've faced the verge of explosion twice already this year. took control of myself, i can.
ah, i am having that moment of emo again.

hmm, there's nothing much to talk about my life, besides having good food everyday.
as long as its edible and tastes well, it doesn't need to be however expensive, it'll be a satisfaction for me.
because food makes me happy.
and seafield's canteen has good food. i eat banana fritters and hashbrowns and ``hardkor``s everyday. best.
and tomorrow need to present biology in class. but i still don't feel like doing any thinking since yesterday morning.
and muet speaking test. the joy, the joy.

just today i complained how rare that i fangirl arashi nowadays, that i need back that life of mine.
or the life when i was crazy about anime.
i mean, my life's so dull now. is this how growing up is supposed to be

and soulmate, where are youuu...

mada owaranai.

Teenage dream!

Identity.

5th August, Friday, the last day of our first monthly exams; my very first test in Seafield. I didn't study really hard, but I think I worked a lot till I felt really stressed at times.

After exams, I felt extraordinarily tired, exhausted, wasted. I thought to myself, "Aren't you supposed to be excited, Sarah? The exams done!" but all I did was shuffle my feet against the cement ground, walked away from the elite block and complained to my afternoon session friends on how much I sucked.

"You're having your monthly visit, that's why," my inner-self reasoned. Sometimes, I hope I'm more of my inner-self: wise, intellectual, analytical. My outer-self's just this playful typical teenage girl.

Anyway, my hair stinks of smoke now.

So I cannot expect much from this exams since I didn't study hard. Although I studied quite hardcore for maths, I'm despairingly sure I cannot get perfect score this time; my brain detached it's neurons all of that sudden. General knowledge (Pengajian Am) is definitely one of my worst paper this term, alongside Biology. Got my score for Chemistry: 20 out of 30. Well enough? Yeah, from someone who didn't really study.

Actually, I've been consoling myself; I've been studying. Haha. The only subjects I didn't study properly for are MUET, PA and Biology. But whatever.

"It means, you have more space of improvement for the next term! People would be awed by how much you improved," I told my friend today. Lynn told me this is self-consoling, but I've been hearing this line for quite some time, maybe everyone were consoling themselves as well!

Nevermind that. I'll sleep nao, good night and let's pray for the best. :)

Exam results

Hmph..
Wasn't that satisfying though..

Today's paper.

Maths: Targetted 40/40 for paper 1, but at last I only got 38/40. But usually I won't get sad over this, but the ones I got wrong because of silly mistake. D'oh I'll get fed up..

Chinese: This is worse. I only got 21/40 for paper 1. But fortunately, my paper 2 was just nice. Although not very high, but I still manage to get my marks to a B ^^

Science: WORST. But we only got back paper 1. Mine is 35/40. Not bad, but paper 2, teacher gives that "bad look" to us. I think no one's going to get a very good mark then..

KHB: Best. 90/100. Didn't expect that too.. Was targetting for a B, but who knows? Heh, got an A ^^

FAILURE!!

AARRGGHH!!
This is like the 3rd time I post a blog with screaming.
GRR..
So stressed out..
Didn't study for Geografi last night.
"padan muka", that's what I'm going to say to myself..
Today the Geografi questions so difficult.
Worse than my Sejarah paper =.=
I think this time going to get C..
T_T
Miserable, walk through everybody at the end of school.
Without looking up.
I'm sick with myself.

Tomorrow have to bring Geo book to centre and STUDY HARDER!!
2nd trials(if there is) is on the way!!

And..
MUAHAHA!
Tomorrow is the last day of trial!
Totemo ureshii desuuu~

And then, Saturday go my cousins' house..
RICH cousins' house ner..
Damn big big one..
TV also big big..
Go there watch WIDE SCREEN "HEART OF GREED"!!
OooOh, they're coming to Summit this coming Sunday..

AND WAN CHEAN'S GONNA BE THERE!

BUT!!!
I can't go T_T
I go Sunway Pyramid and stay at the hotel there for 2 nights!
I want to see Wan Chean T_T
LIVE PUNYE T_T
I hope, pray that she'd come Sunway after that..
HAHAs..
Hmph..
I haven't finish talking about my exam today..
Before the Geografi paper, it was the Maths paper..
Heh heh..
Paper 1 was damn easy..
And paper 2?
I think I flunked all the algebraic questions..
I weak in that "ma"!
Don't laugh "la"!

OooOh! And I got a bad news too T_T
Wan Chean's MSN got hacked xP
SADDENING!
Now she's making another account, that is TOTALLY private..
And I think..
Only her FRIENDS knows.
I WANT TO CHAT WITH HER TOO!
T_T

Okays.
I'm too high le..
Just now too low.
Now too high..
Later I ter-move too much brainwaves, kisiau le.
HAHAs.

-1 more day to trial ends!-

Attention!

Below will be my reaction for tomorrow!

Science? Hate it!

Oh gosh..
Gosh..
My Science paper 2.
I flunked it..
Gosh..
I'm dead..
Very dead..
I already lost around 10 marks..
Gosh..
Grrr..
And KH already wrong 3 questions..
Grrr..

BUT!

Tomorrow is the best paper of my life!

Its..

*drumroll*

~chiang!~

MATHS PAPER!!

Exaggerating huh?

I know, I know..

Its easy, that's why a lot of people like Maths questions..

Oh, before I forget..

All papers, except for Maths and Science, are from PPD..

Whereas Maths and Science are from JPS..

WOoooO, JPS so rich nei.

White colour paper one.

Haha.

PPD one, recycled paper.

Poked with the compass, got hole already =.='''

Maybe they realised that need to use white paper for Sc and Mm, because requires drawing.

AHA!

This is the smartest choice the government had ever made!!

*salute position*

And..

HAHA..

Today, I saw Fur play badminton..

Then his opponent hit the shuttlecock to his "pipit".

*laugh out loud-ing*

Today's papers make me very guilty..

VERY VERY GUILTY..

T_T

Hmmm..

What else to say?

I think that's about it "la"..

I very fed up already..

-2 more days to exam ends and holidays!(and counting)-

Hai yaaahh..

Hai yaaahh..
Moral paper is also involved in our PMR trials, wasting time only =.=
And its 2 freakin' long hours.
What a waste of time..
Cis, why can't they do like always, chinese students take chinese paper, while Islam take Islam paper =.=
Wasting my time.
At least like that, I can already finish my damn damn damn Chinese paper 2, which will result to my hand becoming pain =.=

Well ANYHOW..
I finished around 45minutes later, which is 11.50a.m.
CIS CIS CIS.
The ending time?
1.05p.m.
AARRGGHH!
Freakin' 1 more hour and 15 more minutes..
SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP =.=
Wasting time laa..
But right, I think I slept around 30 minutes, and I was woke up by happy (so wrong!) children (more wrong!) laughing and talking and screaming.
Duh, afternoon session are here.
And hot sun.
SHINING RIGHT THROUGH MY EYES.
AARRGGHH, tried to sleep back, but couldn't.

Ooohh well, I just read the lyrics I pasted on my desk..
Guess what lyrics??
Hell yeah!
Wan Chean's Hao Bu Hao!!
Heh heh..

Then, I just waited, and waited, and waited.
THEN!
A form 3 girl walk past our class.
Our heads turn to look outside.
Then to the teacher.
Then the teacher stood up.
Then she say.
"Okay kelas, masa dah tamat. Pastikan anda tulis nama anda di kertas soalan dan jawapan. Yang depan Islam kutip kertas Agama dan yang depan moral kutip kertas moral (Okay class, times up. Make sure you wrote your name on the question paper and answer paper. The Islam student in front collect the Islam paper and the moral student in front collect the moral paper)"
WEEEE~ SO HAPPY!
Finally~
And..
My neck aches after sleeping at a not-right position.

OKAYZ, I have to study Science and KH now..
Bye bye!
Pray hard for me AGAIN!!
Thanks!

OMG!!

Ehm, before that, I'd like to share about my family tree xD
Namely, Pet Family Tree..

Miki's Pet Family Tree

Father:???

Mother:Phlip

Elder brother:(i)Benny

(ii)Delta

(iii)KY

Younger brother: ZM

Elder sister: Tsuki
Younger sister:(i)Kasumi

(ii)Kirei

(iii)Kaka

Explanations: Phlip, my mummy, was unofficially declared to be my mother, on 08-08-08. Only me and Kaka knew that he is our pet mother, others do not know. xD

____________________________________________

Now, based on the TITLE, its "OMG!!", I'm here to share a shocking news, of myself.

AARRGGHH!!

PMR trial paper for Malay and History was, SICKENING, FREAKING, TERRIBLY, HORRIBLY, TREMENDOUSLY, SUPER-DUPER HARD!!

Well, I hate a question in the Malay paper the most.

"Based on your view, should you trust in fate?"

Arrgh, and its OBJECTIVE paper..

Duh, I trust..

And I wanted to put my own view, which is "Yes, God has planned it".

But NOOO, there must be an answer, not YOUR answer, the PPD's answer..

Positively, the answer is "No, because you can work hard to change your fate" =.=

I am seriously ZHA DOU.

And then its history paper..

Well, I can't say much about it because, its histori-sed already..

Can't change it.

Blame myself for not studying harder.

HISTORY!

AARRGGHH!

Tomorrow's papers are: ENGLISH & MORAL

Blek, no need to study too hard!

But need to study for KH and SCIENCE!!

Nitey nitey, pray hard for me~~

Nervous-ing!

Yeah yeah.. I know I said I'll post after trials.. But, I'm too nervous. Here to share my nervousness..

Trials are as important as the PMR paper, so doomed I am already, because I haven't finish revising yet.. I'll (not) fail my exam!

Okay then, bye bye people.

Ah?

Ahahahaha!
Wan Chean approved me in her Friendster already!
Totemo ureshii!
And wow, she got so many pictures =)
I save them one by one xP

Got so many already..
But I'm not going to post it up because, uh..
Not selfish, but its copyrighted..
Better be safe, than sorry..

Ah well, tomorrow I'm not going school..
Yay yay..
Can play, but not much..
Have to study for next week's trial paper..
Man, English teacher putting on pressure on us..
AHHH AAHH!

Just can't stop screaming..
Got addicted to Wan Chean and Tiger biscuit.
Thanks Ida for the Tiger biscuit..
LOVE IT SOO MUCH!

Haha, too much..
Sooo, as my conclusion..
The next whole week, I won't on computer..
UNTIL TRIAL ENDS, I'LL BE SCREAMING!
HAHAHAHA..
And post up a story, that me and my friends wrote, without using our "mother-hand" xD
The writing very messy, worse than a 1st grader xD
And the story is also worse than a 1st grader's sentence.

Therefore, I'll be signing off for now..
BYE BYE, SEE YOU NEXT TIME T_T

Part 2 of my ASQ-ness!

I'm using mobile again!
Oh yeah.
I got addicted to Wan Chean already..
1hour ago I was listening to her song, 好不好.
Damn powerful..
Combination of the power of the composer of the lyrics, the composer of the music, and last but most important, Wan Chean's very powerful voice.
Ah, I can't wait to go out and find her EP, except the problem is, I don't know where to find it. xD
If you're reading this and you know, tell me please!

Gosh, the ASQ finals is having a repeat show at this Saturday.. Wow, was I so excited to watch it again!
Anyway, today, I just got the timetable for the PMR trials.
So scary..
Got moral and art paper.. Wth? Both also not in PMR..
Nah, who cares.. So.. I'll be taking 10 subjects, sucks, like SPM only.. Ah, tension? I felt none, that's why, I'll fail this trial! No!!!
Just, pray, hard, I, don't, get, so, addictive, to, WAN CHEAN!
These few days I hadn't been studying because I was finding out about Wan Chean.
My outcome, I found hers (and Debbie's) blog, and her Friendster..
Ha ha.. I know I'm obsessed, just pray hard I'll be able to resist temptation! Praise the Lord.
Okay, I gotta sleep now..
And I can't wait for this Saturday!
ASQ finals, repeat!
Yay xD
Oyasumi!

Fufufu~~

Kill me, if it is your desire xDD
Gah, actually I wanted to share with you all, my happy happy moments is my Child Care Centre..
But stupid Photobucket uploads so slow, I cannot do it! TT__TT

Soooo, just here to share my feelings^^

PMR's around the so-called-corner..
Why do we say "around the corner"?
Like as if we are going to knock it if we turn left, or right =.=
And, there is still 94 days (hope I didn't lost count).
Trial's next month..
On 11th August (Kirei-chan no tanjobi)..
How unlucky eh???

Ahh..
So I shared my um..
Sad or scared feelings?
And now I share the excited one..
NARUTO SHIPPUUDEN THE MOVIE: BONDS is coming out!!
2nd August, in Japan.. Which I estimated (Fuyoooh, I estimated xDD) is going to take 4 months to come here..
Which means, around next year only I get to watch..
I hope it comes here the day after PMR results xDD

Got nothing to write..
Unless you pour me with nice experiences, then I'll bet to write EVERY SINGLE DETAIL in here xD

Fight!

Haha, I wondered should I put quarrel or fight..
But since my friend said it was a fight, so I'm planning to tell you all about it.
All happened at 26th May.

-1st fight-
GCM vs a lot of us.
D'oh, she is an adult, of around 60-70.
Of course we couldn't fight back =.=

-2nd fight-
Tong gas (which mean gas tank) vs the girls and Penguin
We just told Penguin that PW had stained her pants and Tong Gas started scolding us saying we were embarrasing the girls..
And I fought back saying Form 3 also going to learn about reproduction and I doubt she even know that it is in the textbook =.=
Proves that she didn't study xD

-3rd fight-
KM(actually she's part of my group) vs my group of girls
That GCM was insulting people all day long.
So KM was like SMS us, although we were sitting in front of her.
Then TS suddenly like scold her, and we all agree that.
And KM got angry and just went out to join the other group of girls.
(the girls below 12)

-4th fight-
YT vs my group of girls (cept for KM)
YT, a spoiled brat, a bitch, a bossy boiler.
Nah, I dare to say it, cause I hate her lots.
She's very young, yet spoiled, and bitchy.
And all because she's rich.
Her bitchy attitude wasn't like, but her money was liked.
So, back to the story..
When we finished out homeworks, we were bored..
Then we suggested to play YT's "The Game of Life".
So TS was sitting at the place where YT wants to sit..
Then they started to fight because of that YT brat, and TS didn't give out that place..
So YT got sooo angry, and at that time I called CS to take the board game..
And YT went out and CS followed her.
So CS took in and we got all sorted until..
A guy KC suddenly came in with a message from YT.
"YT say you must let her play or she'll keep"
Then we say can! We gave her a better place to sit already.
Then KC went out and came back in with a message.
"YT say you all cannot play. Give her back"
Then we keep on protest and at that time, GCM was wating and looking at us.
Then she asked and we told.
(lemme fastforward)
And we played Saidina instead of her damn game.
Then suddenly TS receive a SMS from KH, YT's brother.
"why you bully my sister?"
Then she let us see.
That time GCM was just beside us sleeping.
We talked too loud and she heard it.
Then she called YT in and asked her.
But she said she didn't tell her brother.
BITCHY LIAR.
And we just let it away.
Let it be.
That bitch is better left alone.

If you are reading this, the 4 bitches (the 1st 2 bitches no la, they where got know English <-- Malaysian English), then change your attitude.
Gah, forgive everybody..
Have love in life..
Calmed ^^
Thanks, I think I have released out my hatred.

HI xDD

Its been a while, me loyal followers of my blog!
Sorry I hadn't been updating since.. Hmm, March eh?
A month ago..
*sighs*
Was too busy, what to do?
So, I'm here to update a bit of my life!

Exam, was, freaking, scary!
Ok, its not scary, just, DIFFICULT.
Heard me say that?
Exam was on 14-23 May..
16 May was teachers' day, 19 was public holiday.
4 days of time to study, yet not enough.
And history paper was rubbish.

Well, 23rd was last day of school, and last day of exam!
That was even cooler..
Guess what?
That Friday, finish school early (at 12.35pm) and it was more fun..
So that day exam only 2 paper, 1 hour each.
And we manage to finish that paper before reccess..
Practically, after reccess was our CELEBRATION TIME!!
So after reccess, no teacher came in our class, except for our class teacher, and she came in and blabble blabble blabble and screaming at the top of her lungs.
My eardrum nearly break..
So at the last period, we had assembly (everytime before a holiday starts we have assembly)..
And the main point is teacher will tell us to use our holidays wisely and stuff.
And because I was the 1st class, sitting nearest to the exit of our school, we get to go out first!!!
And it was DARN EMPTY, like only me and Yunho was walking..
We screamed at the top of our lungs (not that exagarating): "Holidays are here! Exam has end! YAY!!!!" and we practically ran outside but..


our transport wasn't here yet =.=
We waited for another 30 minutes only can go back..
xD
End of blog, I know its a bit boring, but I have nothing to write except..
HOLIDAYS has started!
2 weeks some more!!

EXAM!!

Yo! Miki-chan is back!
Yunho told me to update my blog, so I did!

Referring to my title of this blog, you shall know what I'm going to crap all about this time, don't you?

Actually, NO!
You are seriously wrong!
I'm not going to "crap" about it, but I'm going to TALK about it!
xP

I know it isn't April Fool yet, but there's this excitement in me. To fool and to be fooled. Mwahahaha! Now, back to the real talk I'm going to talk.

Exam started from 21st March. And before exam was holiday. You know how many days? 10 freaking long and fun days!!!! Well, actually its not long enough.. Even my Chinese teacher said that this holiday was too short. Even at least should be 3 weeks! Then after the holidays, we came back to study. Then after studying was another one-day holiday. After the one-day holiday, it was the EXAM DAY! (dramatic effect: *doomed music*)

So 21st was a Friday.. So it meant that Friday exam, Saturday and Sunday are study day. Then we went back to school. The following whole week was exam day. BLAHHH!!! STRESS!!!! (I just read a magazine named ParenThink! -although I'm not a parent, but I just read it because it talks about how to treat us, as children!-, they say "It is common to hear about children getting stressed out nowadays. Years ago, many adults found it hard to believe that children could be affected by stress but in this day and age, it is commonplace to have reports of children showing signs and symptoms of stress" which I totally agree with them! So this is a prove that children can get stressed out too! Tell your parents this!!!!! :D)

This is a prove from myself. I was so stressed studying history (Miss X! Remember her?). I studied non-stop and when I stopped studying, I felt aches all around my body. Then I couldn't stand it anymore, I went to sleep.. In the middle of the night, my mother woke me up and told me I got fever! Ahh! Additional stress! History paper and sickness, what could be worse? And of course I sat for the paper!!

And finally, exam is over! Which was yesterday! Wheeeee~~~ And today got school because replacement for that Election 2008! DAP won, yay yay :D I got back 4 papers, which I'm not going to tell you the marks! But I'll tell the grades. 3 A's, 1 B.. What a target.. T_T

There's nothing I could talk more.. Suddenly I have no inspiration to type, and also to write my story..
Guess its because of my fever!
May God give me divine healing!
~Not signing off, but finish this post!~
(Sorry Yunho if this is boring, I told ya all I could write is sick, and exam xDD)